My relationship with bugs started slowly to change when I began to work with Maija Linturi and our Decomposing project last spring. Before I was quite a brutal fly and insect derminator in our house. My kids used to look at me silently and say "Mom, do you really have to do that?".
No, I don't have to do that. These days there is a pause in my thinking. I see the insects and let them be (except if there's fly or mosquito in my bedroom when I try to sleep)(or if I find a tick baiting my dog) (or yes, there are few more occasions...).
Building shared spaces for bugs and insects is a task that I'm happy to put my fingers on and expand my understanding towards the other. It's an act of care and in so many levels needed focus shift.
For me earthworms are a sign of spring. As a small child I liked them a lot. I used to collect a bouquet of worms on asphalt and saved them by lifting them on the grass or under the bushes. Now since I have an allotment the earthworms have started to feel like friends once again and I feel delighted every time I see them.
Olli- Pekka Jauhiainen:
Lapsena olin yliherkkä itikoiden pistoille ja hyönteisten maailma näyttäytyi minulle negatiivisena. Nyt kolme vuosikymmentä myöhemmin olen alkanut katsella hyönteisiä uudella kiinnostuksella. Vaikka en osaa vielä tunnistaa kovinkaan montaa lajia, häkellyn joka kerta kun tarkkailen niiden elämää.
Kastemadot ovat minulle kevään merkki. Pienenä lapsena pidin niistä kovasti muutenkin. Sateella keräsin matoja kimpuiksi asfaltilta ja “pelastin” nurmikoille ja pensaiden juurille. Puutarhapalstan myötä kastemadot ovat taas alkaneet tuntua kavereilta, ja ilahdun aina
kun näen niitä.
I have followed a path made by ants, I have swallowed a fly, I have let a mosquito suck itself full of my blood before killing it, I have been mesmerized by the sound of grasshoppers, I have been bitten by a tick, I have tried to be friends with a spider, I have wished that a ladybug would stay on my arm longer, I have cut an earthworm in two pieces just to see what happens, I have helped a beetle to turn around, I have caught a vasp in a matchbox to get it out of the house, I have been wondering how a dragonfly uses its wings.
A Field. A Forest. A seaside. A bottom of the lake. A pavement. In the beginning it seems there is nothing, nothing is happening. But if you stay still for a bit longer. If you focus your sight onto one tiny spot it will happen- a countless moments of wonder. Be open, be present and you will be rewarded.